Well, hello there! I have been neglecting this because I *also* don't like the current layout of this area. The entire site is kind of driving me nuts. I've been brainstorming how to fix this and I do have *something* of a plan. Ciel said she would help draw the elements of it and J is going to help me figure out the basecode. Once this is implemented, I feel that working on my website will be a heck of a lot less overwhelming to work on. Right now, it's a mess I am completely unsatisified with that genuinely makes me panic to just be on. The organization does not work, things are all over the place... ugh. Drives me wack.
I'm hoping to simplify this journal down as well so that adding updates and entires is an easier process. I have been being a little bad with my phyiscal IRL journal as well in maintaining it, and I feel like if I had a way to make faster, easier journal entries I could get a lot more written about here. This is an archive for myself mostly. I try to censor myself everywher else on the Internet but no one is reading this other than me so I feel like it's a good placce to throw it all out there.
In terms of what's new...
My classes for school are more organized now, which is both good and bad. Annoying mostly. Valentine's Day came and went and it was really nice to celebrate that with J and Ciel. I saw family a few times. I find this really disorganizes me and makes me feel very unstable. But I feel like a bad person for saying that.
In my free time I've been trying my best to do as many of the dozens of Feb's fanfiction events but in the end I wasn't able to do all of them. I want to write more than I do... my stress levels have been really high so it's been difficult to push myself harder than I do already. I'm happy that I was able to finish any work this month.
I also have been playing a ton of the 3DS, just ping ponging around... it is super relaxing and helpful. I've been playing a lot of Theatrythm on both the 3DS and I preordered Final Bar Line (I got to the end credits of both)... like I said, it's super relaxing so I view it as a tool to destress at the end of my day.
As a family, me Ciel and J have been playing through Final Fantasy 8 and we are really enjoying it. We got to disc 2 last night. So exciting. I really like Seifer, he's sooooo cute. I didn't think I would think this but I do. I want to adopt him... he's a little knight. Moe.
Something memorable about our playthrough is, we went to the Tomb of the Unknown King and you have to follow this strange map. The dungeon is really hard to navigate. Ciel was determined to look all around after we'd found the lost weapon, thinking she could save the student. When she was looking around she was able to develop a strategy to make it to all the rooms and areas. J helped and they found out a way to lower the water level, we found the summon Brothers which was adorable. One of them SPEAKS IN ALL CAPS because he's big and the other speaks in all lower case cos he's small. But the tiny one is the big brother. XD
We are playing without a guide or any knowledge on it really, making mistakes or playing in a less optimal way prolly and missing secrets but it makes moments like that feel like SUCH victories and also just like... idk... I didn't expect it all so we were all excited about it busting lauging. We were able to clear the dungeon and got a new friend out of it to join our GFs : )
Something funny was, in the battle, Zell used haste. So we were imagining he was cracked out or took a Red Bull or something. The boss, Brothers, they have regen abilities as long as they are rooted to the ground. So we had to caste float. The animation for float shows wings and then the character gets to hover in the air. So we made a ton of jokes about how Red Bull Gives You Wings and how Zell was throwing Red Bull at the enemy to give them wings... or something... lol.
Yesterday night we took some coke which is a once in a blue moon type of deal for us. Ciel hadn't tried it yet so it was really funny. I had this master plan that we were gonna marathon 8 and get super far. But uhhh... we were way too off our asses to do much of anything. It happened pretty fast. It took me forever to play the boss fight before the scene where Squall is like slowly dangling across that like.. uh... beam or whatever. In the jail like you're escaping it but its underground or moving or whatever. Man I don't know how to explain it LOL. Anyway, i like that my household is a Final Fantasy Fan household and we are all int into it hardcore : ) it's my childhood dream but *REAL*. I'm blessed and really lucky.
I wish I could remember more but I don't know if I can my head kinda still hurts from crashing from drugs. Again, I don't do that stuff often at all anymore. I used to be such a tank for it. I just use it on special occassions. We made a big huge fort in the living room since we have a few days off fo the weekend from school so I considered that a special occassion : )
Oh yeah, I ship Strifehart cos I always did but I think I might like Seifer/Squall idk tho the torture scene was really cute. Seifer being all ohh I'm a good puppy am I doing a goodjob being EVIL did you think I looked really cool. It's always been my dream to be mommydommed and also have a super cool rival. Swear your undying rivalry to me ok let's be the best rivals ever I'm so committed to tormenting you. (so cute. so cute. so cute) I'm a rival KNIGHT.... .. . .. . . .. . . .(le Morte D'arthur got me ruined for Knights and shit that stuff is mad sexual)
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